Because I would like to help you in the best way I can, I need to explain something first before we can continue our journey into the subconscious. I need to explain what “bad clusters” are. Maybe the name sounds a little scary, but once you understand what they are and how it affects our life in a negative and unnecessary way, I’m certain you’ll want to know all about it.
Bad clusters are the result of a short-circuiting in our brain. The first time I heard that – my first reaction was, what?? But it soon became clear to me that these bad clusters had absolutely nothing to do with actually being electrocuted. Such a relief! Whatever we experience in our lives will be stored in our subconscious brain. Most of it we think we ‘forget’. But in actuality, we might consciously forget most of it, but subconsciously – nothing is lost. The reason we ‘forget’ something is caused by how our brain codes every little detail we perceive though our five senses (see, hear, smell, taste, touch), this is combined with the feeling we experience in our body.
The more feelings (positive or negative) we experience during something that we observe through our five senses, the easier we will remember. The less feelings we experience, the more likely we ‘forget’ the details. You will never experience a more powerful feeling during the moments a bad cluster is created. Most of our bad clusters are created during childhood, and the reason being is because most harsh events (like hearing someone yell close to our little ears) in the eyes of an adult are minor, but as a child, is much more significant and is perceived very differently.
And don’t get me wrong here, there are (unfortunately) a lot of people that, even when seen through the eyes of an adult, experienced horrible things in their childhood. But to start with an example with how easy it is to create a bad cluster at a young age, and how this have an effect on you upon this very day, I will use a common example:
You are 1 year old; you lie in your crib awakening from your afternoon nap. Because your mom is not there you start to play with the stuffed animal and that fluffy ball that’s next to you with all kinds of colors. Since a few days ago, you’re really getting the hand of this crawling thing. Full of energy you push the ball a little to the side and “yeah”, it moves!!
This is a fun game and you are totally focused on the colored ball. Trying to coordinate all your fancy moves you keep pushing the ball a little forward. Since being so focused on the ball and not what is I front of you, you hit the bars of the crib, really hard. The result is that your head moves in between the bars of your crib and you get stuck with your little tiny head in between the bars. In a reflex, you pull your head back but you are hopelessly stuck and can’t get out. The pain and pressure in your head is getting stronger, the temperature is rising in your little body, your heart starts to race and every single muscle is tense.
You cry holding your hand around the bar and start to shake your head, which gets you even more stuck. At this moment as a little child, you have lost control of the situation and of your emotions.You have no control over your little head being stuck, and you can’t seem to get out of this uncomfortable place. Because of this feeling of loosing control, this starts a short-circuiting in our brain and we create a bad cluster. You cry so hard and by doing so, your mom comes to the rescue. In a very easy way she pushes one bar to the side and you are free. She is picking you up and swaying you back and forth, saying nice words and that everything will be all right. You calm down by her nice words and everything seems back to normal.
But is everything really back to normal? In your tiny childhood mind, is that how you really perceived it? The moment you were stuck between the bars of your crib you felt like you lost all control. And this scary event has the highest level of feelings possible. You lost control, so it feels like there is nothing to hold on to. In others words, your brain switches to autopilot, to the survival mode, also called ‘code red’. There is no feeling more important then the feelings that belong to the survival mode. Ultimately when you don’t survive, any other feeling, thought or behavior becomes useless.
So as long as a situation is not so scary or threatening that we feel like we’ve lost control, our subconscious brain changes the ‘feeling code’ (how we feel about each detail a certain situation) on an average of 40 times per second. These changes are the foundation of how the subconscious creates awareness…but about that in a future post.
During a bad cluster event there is only one ‘feeling code’ active and that is the survival code. In a moment that we feel our life is in danger, this is exactly the feeling we need to survive. However, during everyday life these feeling codes create a very negative and unhealthy feeling in our body. The consequence of all this is that during such scary moments the subconscious brain will attach the exact same scary feeling of losing control to each and every single detail that enters our brain through our five senses. So every color, word, facial expression, object, smell, etc., that we stored during a bad cluster situation will now have the exact same negative feeling code. Based on the fact that all these sensory details are loaded with the highest and most important feeling code (the survival code) would mean that afterwards, we should be able to remember every single part of the scary event. However, there are interviews of records from thousands of people that survived a trauma without ever being unconscious, and yet the interviews showed that there are large amounts of details that they actually did observe but were unable to remember! So when we go back to the child mentioned above, as a baby, you are unable to remember most of these details. So many of our bad clusters are created during childhood because of this perceived loss of control – like getting stuck in your crib, or hearing loud noises close to your tiny little ears. Most of these childhood ‘scary’ events we do not even remember – let alone the details of it.
It’s also important to understand that bad clusters are not only created during childhood. They are created at any point in your life when you feel a complete loss of control.
In a previous blog I explained how our subconscious uses everything that is stored during our life as comparison material to analyze similar observations in the future. Unfortunately, our subconscious cannot read the content of a bad cluster (I will explain why in a future post) but what it can read, are all the details that contain the highest possible feeling code – the survival code. Our subconscious is genetically programmed so that it can never refuse this life saving code. Therefore, it will always execute this feeling code to warn us that there is danger.
Let us briefly go back to the moment when you were stuck between the bars of your crib, the moment you created a bad cluster. What did you see at that moment? Maybe the colorful ball, the object in the room, and what did you hear including your own screaming? How did you move your arms, hand, legs, and the rest of your body? When you looked at your mom when she entered the room to save you, what did you see? What did she say?
Every detail, like the colors, facial expressions, sounds, smells etc., that you observe later on in life that is subconsciously also stored in that same bad cluster, will activate these negative scary feeling codes that are attached to it. So it’s crucial to be able to remember all of these details. These feeling codes create such a high level of change in your body (you will feel this), and not in a pleasant way. Just imagine, you see something nice but suddenly you feel irritated. You cannot explain why a good situation activated such a nasty feeling. Well now you know why! There are details in your surroundings that you are not consciously aware of that are the ingredients of a bad cluster situation that you cannot remember. This is why you ‘suddenly’ feel bad in an otherwise happy situation. We usually call the minor form of this mood-swings. As you might suspect, it works a little more complex in the brain, but to get the gist of it, this is basically how it works.
In later blogs I will explain how this process has far reaching consequences on your beliefs, behavior and health. For now I want to conclude with the positive aspect of bad clusters.
The good thing about a bad cluster is that they contain a tremendous amount of energy. Once the bad cluster is freed from its negative load you can use the freed energy to achieve the desired goals in your live!
Know that you have to gain a lot with this, because, here comes a surprise, we ALL have bad clusters! There is not ONE person in the entire universe who doesn’t have one (or a few). So in other words, we can transform that negative energy into making all your dreams come true!!
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